What will tomorrow bring?


I lie awake for hours on end thinking about every little thing I’ve ever done in my life, or ever will do. I recap every moment of the day, question everyone’s motives and worry about what tomorrow will bring. I’m so full of doubt and devoid of self-confidence that I manage to convince myself that I will fail, before I’ve even tried. Even the smallest, most insignificant things somehow grow into horrible, heavy cysts of insurmountable worry and fear that flatten me and leave me clawing for release. It gets to a point at the end of the working week where I just want to scream and unleash all the tension and pressure that’s built up inside of me. But when I try, I have no voice and it doesn’t go away.

It’s anxiety and it’s something I’ve been battling for as long as I can remember.

The idea that men shouldn’t show their emotions has existed for a long time. It seems like we should all have this “she’ll be right” mentality and move on with our lives. The thing is, it can be a real struggle move on with it and shake the feeling that everything is about to go wrong.  Horribly, horribly wrong.  

Perhaps even worse than the anxiety itself is the feeling that you have no one to talk to about it. Let’s face it — a mental health issue isn’t exactly the easiest topic to work into a conversation with your friends down at the pub.

Fortunately for men like me, some of the stigma around mental health issues is beginning to clear and campaigns like Beyond Blue’s Man Therapy are starting to shed some light on the situation. I now know that my anxiety doesn’t have to be forever and I don’t have to worry about what tomorrow will bring. With the help of a psychologist, I’m learning new ways to relax, clear my mind and enjoy my life.

If you feel like you could use a hand and would like to talk to someone about your mental health, you can take advantage of one of the following services:


- Tom